| December 22, 2008 In Memory of my Aunt Goldie |
[Dec. 22nd, 2008|09:08 pm] |
There are no sufficient words in times like this to convey thoughts and emotions. Nor is there a proper way to announce news such as this. So please forgive this informal way and understand that I know that any response to this is difficult. Writing it is worse, trust me. My Aunt Goldie - after a very brave and courageous 2 year fight with breast cancer and the horrendous side effects of the chemotherapy, is finally at peace with no more worries. All that know her, including all of us, had no way of knowing just how close the end was because she kept up the fight and the positive attitude to the very end. Up until today, just a few hours ago actually, I truly believed that when we talked about the end, we were talking months or years before we had to face it. Though my aunt in title (she was my mom's youngest sister), she was more like my sister due to us growing up together. Only 14 years older than me, she was the big sister I never had. My family is extremely close - and we're all here for each other and will get through this. We feel her everywhere - in our house, in every room, in all of us. It's going to take a very long time for this to sink in - a very long time. Though her life was cut short but this incredibly horrible disease, the fact that her cancer was caught early gave her 2 more years with us. Each and every minute was one I will be forever thankful for. I know that each and every minute of each and every day to come, she is with me - with the girls, with every one of us in the way she couldn't before. (she's reminding me now to take out the garbage) Her life, was something to celebrate, something to admire.. something to truly wish for. As a teacher, she affected the lives of hundreds of kids. As someone in our family, she was irreplaceable. Please, if you or anyone you know has not had a mammogram - have one. It's no big deal. I get one every 6 months. It may give you an extra day to make a difference - just as it gave Aunt Goldie 2 years. |
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| Hi again! |
[Apr. 11th, 2008|06:39 pm] |
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Since it's the weekend and I'm not going anyplace at all (or at least thats my plan) I decided to update! Mostly because I just came inside and rather than take a nap or bubble bath, I am sitting in front of the heater. It's a bit coldish outside! Anyway...
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| oops, Hi all. |
[Apr. 6th, 2008|09:29 pm] |
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Oops. I forgot about updating. I just finished my second weekend escape actually.. back to DC again. Been very stressed at work (not really me per se - but just everything that's been happening is stressful. With work and everything else happening family wise.. cancer, divorce, money issues.. I just needed to go bye bye. So I did. I love being able to just go. ( Click to continue on and on ) |
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| February |
[Feb. 9th, 2008|12:54 pm] |
Quick update.. things are going well. Despite there being a ban on OT -- I was excluded somehow and worked my ass off last week. I'm on special projects - and that always seems to involve lots of action. I seriously have to start working out or something now because the pounds are not dropping off - but my skin is. heh.. and I'm still dropping sizes. So that's my next thing.. start exercising,. a little anyway. As mentioned I've been working a lot.. and I was informed that in order to keep me out of going back to pharmacy - (which at this point is what I want to do because I can't go back to being bored) they're going to have to promote me. Thats the only way to change my "core roles". Marie - the team lead of price accuracy (where I had been helping out) is planning on moving down south - and that'll be where I probably go. Of course that means I inherit all the problems with that team - which are massive - but it will be a challenge. The good part is the team starts work at 5am... which I'm loving... and continue to have that schedule -- with the $2/hour shift differential.. giving me a free $80 a week. Plus they'll probably raise my hourly rate - so that'll be nice. With my check garnished though I wont be seeing all that much more than usual. But every penny helps. I'm a bit behind on my WDW savings for next year.. so I can pick up the pace on that. Too bad I wont see this years tax return.. that gets taken also! stupid.. So thats my update.. working a lot.. losing sizes, looking good.. thats it! |
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| Jan 26th |
[Jan. 26th, 2008|04:55 pm] |
Time flies! I've been working a lot.. though as of this week overtime is now banned. Things at pharmacy were getting on my nerves. ( click to read on ) |
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| Greetings! Seasons! |
[Dec. 25th, 2007|11:31 am] |
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Just wanted to wish everyone a Very Merry Christmas/Celebration/Holiday! and of course a Massively Happy New Year in advance.. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2007|10:48 pm] |
Quick update with updated pictures.. I realized I haven't taken a picture in months.. and I look a little different. I'll stick em behind a cut.. ( Click to continue on... ) |
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| OMG it's December! |
[Dec. 1st, 2007|11:37 pm] |
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I can't believe it's December already. Stupid COLD weather. We've only had some snow once so far, but a storm is predicted for tomorrow.. with accumulations of ICE - and I've got 2 bald tires that I've been meaning to replace. ( Click to continue ) |
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| Nov 19th |
[Nov. 19th, 2007|10:15 pm] |
AHH the excitement of being me! A short update.. hello to all! ++waves++ Not much is new really. I'll start with me.. since it all pretty much begins with me anyway as far as I am concerned -- me is where it all starts. And ends. I can just sing about it.. meee, meee, meeeeee! I've gotta be meeeeee.. I've been working (on the railroad, all the livelong day) a lot in the past 4 -5 weeks - which is good because I'm desperate for cash. Since my paychecks have been garnished and I give Aunt Goldie money each month - I'm seeing less and less greenstuff. So at least I know Aunt Goldie's getting what she needs. The week before last I managed to work 24 hours overtime! That was a nice 64 hours that week... during which time I screwed up and forgot to bring my regular Croc shoes to change into. It was raining - so I wore regular closed running shoes -- for 12 hours.. and I should know better than to switch from shoes that are working well to unused to shoes.. worst part was that I didn't realize it at first. So after the 12 hours, when I got home, my lower back was very sore - it felt like it was going to go out -- which I hate because at that time I can't really stand up straight and walking is virtually impossible. It's only happened twice before and it was painful and scary. My good knee had been acting up as well, so I tried to rest that night. While at work, I filled a Rx for Flexeril which is a muscle relaxant - since at this point every muscle was tensing and straining as well. Earlier that day I had already taken 2 Vicoden and 2 gabapentin... but I wasn't thinking about driving home... and took one.. which was a very bad thing... very bad... very very bad... thankfully nothing bad happened.. but I came close a few times. For whatever reason, my mind decided I was driving in a video game.. and I was racing other cars.. which I actually did.. and then in my totally fucked up state, realized was not a good thing.. and I kept repeating.. this is real, this is real... and then I got off the wrong exit - and somehow wasn't going to use my brakes.. and just about slammed into a tree when I decided I didn't feel like turning the wheel because it may hurt... Very BAD. Plus I'm over 90 pounds lighter than I used to be and my body is way more sensitive.. or is that Weigh more? or less?
Next day, without thinking, (seems I do that often when in pain) I put on the closed shoes again -- meaning to bring a pair of Crocs with me. But I forgot. I go to work - another 9am to 9pm day.. by noon I was in agony. It was typical Sciatica - with shooting pain going down the entire right side of my butt and thigh. The problem was that the L1/S1 area that the doctors are telling me are damaged (ruptured, compressed, screwed -- depends on who I speak to) apparently swelled up more than usual... and not only could I not stand up straight, I couldn't sit or lay either... about the only semi-alright position was being bent over a chair.. hehehe.. so at this point, I hadn't eaten yet.. and good weight loss surgery patient that I am, I knew I had to eat.... so I made some high protein chicken with cheese over it... and had a few bites.. all still leaning over the chair.. somehow my pouch objected to this.. which probably meant that I didn't chew something well... and withing a few minutes of the first bite I knew I was going to be sick. Being at work with a temporary fill-in pharmacist meant that I had to be at the pharmacy.. so I kept running back and forth to the bathroom (we have our own bathroom thankfully) for the next 3.5 hours. Of course I "ran" in my bent over position and pretty much very slowly since walking was hard on my back .. and despite my friends knowing what was going on.. it was difficult for them to not burst out laughing at me. (and I kept laughing at me also because it really was pretty funny). Deciding against taking any medication that could make me wackier.. I decided to break the rule of not taking NSAIDs after weight loss surgery and took Ibuprofin. (NSAIDs can cause damage to the surgically altered stomach) It helped a lot. It was then I realized that I was NOT wearing my trusty ugly Crocs. It's now about a week later, and the pain is mostly gone, but my right inner thigh and part of my right butt cheek is completely and totally numb. Not tingly numb.. totally and completely numb. Like it's not there anymore. From time to time I get stabbing nerve pain -- so I know it's just the nerve thats being compressed and there's not much that can be done - eventually the swelling will go down and the feeling will come back. Plus I just don't have the time to worry about it. Since I can't take anti-inflammatory meds regularly there's not much I can do about it. But I'm walking fine and the pain is gone so it's all good.
I should do a cut.. but I don't feel like going back to the start.. so I apologize. I've got another crazy week ahead of me. Tomorrow is 9 to 9.. then I'm not quite sure about Wednesday.. Thursday is Thanksgiving and the store is "closed" but I'm working 6am to 11:45am.. we're setting up for Black Friday...and I'm working 5:30am till who knows when Black Friday... and then I'm off for the first Saturday in weeks.. but working Sunday..
Ok, I think that's about all... |
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| Quick update.. |
[Oct. 9th, 2007|10:02 pm] |
I'm back from WDW - it was fantastic. Despite the daily rain which was atypical of normal Florida quick storms because some days it just kept on raining - I had a great time. Then I came home. The fantasy ended abruptly - with a huge smack upside my head. I found out that my boss (Blessy) is transferring to VIrginia. Her husband found a job there. I think it's a great thing for her - she needs to get away from here - but it's sad nonetheless. Sandy left a few months ago. So now we're searching for new pharmacists. I believe one accepted an offer today.. but I don't know him yet. We're going to extended hours in 2 weeks which makes it even harder to find a willing pharmacist.
Then comes the whopper news. Aunt Goldie's blood work showed that the tumor markers had spiked. They sent her for a PET scan which showed suspect areas on her liver. Long story short - the oncologist confirmed that based on the images and the blood work - the cancer spread and they'll be doing a brain scan this week to see if there's any traces there. They'll be starting chemo again and possibly radiation once they have a better idea of whats going on. The type of cancer she has is apparently relatively rare and very aggressive. Whatever that means. And of course we have the positive idea that this was caught very early - since they're doing blood work regularly and her last test was 3 months ago. I say positive idea because to me it's hard to see the positives of cancer in any way.. but I also see it being positive that it's not like.. ok there's nothing we can do. Then to add to that, my mom's blood work is slightly elevated and they did a chest x-ray last week which they want to repeat again next week. As for me, I'm happy to report that I had a mammography and breast sonogram last week and I'm good for the next 6 months. I had a spinal MRI last week and haven't gotten any results yet.. and I managed to lose about 6 pounds on vacation. I'm down like 80 pounds or something like that. Or was it 70? Or 90.. I can't remember.. it's a lot of pounds though. I don't know if i'm coming, going or standing still right now.
Since there's very little that can be said.. just feel free to reply and say Hi to me... lot's of hi's would be good. |
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| WALT DISNEY WORLD LIVE DAY 4 |
[Sep. 25th, 2007|11:18 pm] |
WDW LIVE! Day 4
Disney/MGM Studios
Before I start - I realized I forgot to mention the 2nd bus driver incident.. oh and just for the record -- they're called Motor Coaches here at WDW... Like Cinderella get's a coach - so do we. So Last NIGHT -- leaving the Magic Kingdom - I made it to the bus stop before the huge crowd because I left soon after Tinkerbell's flight. Our driver was Ed from Orlando. The bus was overloaded (as usual) with lots of tired people wanting to get back to their resort. He starts driving and when we got to the intersection where the RCID (Reedy Creek Improvement District) fire station is - he was supposed to make a turn - a right I believe - but he passed right by it. Other people noticed as well - and a few more minutes later, he turned into the Carribean Beach Resort. There are 5 bus stops there - it's a fairly gigantic place -- and we had to drive around the entire perimeter of it. I felt so sorry for the standees. Especially the ones trying to hold sleeping children. So the trip took us nearly 40 minutes. Not nice!
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| Watching the clock.. all night |
[Sep. 22nd, 2007|04:37 am] |
Did I even imagine I'd sleep? I tried. Didn't work. I should star in a Walt Disney World commercial.. about all I accomplished overnight was remembering several things I didn't pack. So I am adding it this morning. I may as well just get dressed since I was planning to wake up at 5am and its 4:30 now. I am so excited! I'm breaking my tradition this time by going to the Magic Kingdom today. Normally I go to EPCOT first. I always plan for the most time spent there and with the big Celebration on Oct. 1st.. I decided to make the MK my Day 1 place. Actually speaking of the 1st -- there was an article in the Orlando Sentinel about it recently. Many of us were appalled that TPTB were going to ignore this huge accomplishment. Twenty five years deserves a celebration!
Scott Powers | Sentinel Staff Writer September 18, 2007 Pressed by fans, Walt Disney World is expanding its observance of Epcot's 25th anniversary by providing company-sponsored public events to go along with private celebrations already set for Oct.1. Disney is now planning a public "rededication ceremony" inside Epcot that day that will echo much of the original 1982 dedication. It also will have an exhibit hall dedicated to the park's first 25 years; a special "IlluminNations" light show at the close of the day; and retroguide maps, restaurant menus and other souvenirs. Still, the observances are far less involved than those Disney has already organized for Epcot employees -- less even than some of the private events organized by Disney fans. Disney officials had indicated earlier this year that there would be no company-sponsored public observances of Epcot's silver anniversary. Instead, they said commemorations would focus on the theme park's employees. Many Epcot fans used various Internet forums to criticize Disney for not planning a public marking of the Epcot milestone. The fans also used the Internet to organize private celebrations. As their private arrangements picked up steam this summer, Disney apparently reconsidered its plans. Epcot's new vice president, Jim MacPhee, announced in June that some sort of public celebration would take place. He also disclosed that Disney would take down the wand-and-arm structure that had towered over Epcot's signature attraction, Spaceship Earth, since 1999. Now Disney is providing details of the public observances that will be available to paying visitors to the park on Oct. 1. MacPhee, one of Epcot's original employees from 1982, said the anniversary is still focused on employees, particularly the 300 who both opened the park and still work there. That effort began earlier this month, with various commemorative decorations, giveaways and employee recognitions. "We've always planned to celebrate the 25th anniversary for our cast. It began to evolve very quickly as we focused on what a great milestone it is," MacPhee said. "It's great. I love the fact that people have such huge passion about what we're doing." The resort's change of heart may be partly attributed to the emerging success of various private Epcot parties -- including "Celebration 25,"which is being spearheaded by Adam Roth, a 16-year-old Dr. Phillips High School junior. Celebration 25, which will feature Epcot history tours, get-togethers and parties Sept. 30 and Oct. 1, started as an Internet-networked get-together of Epcot fans. Initially, it was expected to draw 100 or so participants, but the latest count tops 1,100 registrants. Another private celebration, "The Epcot Thing," sponsored by the unofficial Disney-fan Web site MagicalMountain.net, also involves various parties and get-togethers Sept. 30 and Oct. 1. And the annual Florida convention of the National Fantasy Fan Club will take place at Disney World that weekend. Disney officials have noticed the private preparations, and have called organizers to help coordinate the official and unofficial events. Roth does not think the private celebrations goaded Disney into creating a public Epcot celebration. But he thinks they may have inspired Disney to do more than was originally intended. "All our efforts combined -- I think it does show we do have a presence out there of fans," he said. "I think it was a polite reminder that it does mean something to us." |
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